Yes. Yes it is. But today, for what I can assume is the first time ever, I did it. Let me state for the record that I was planning all day to enjoy popcorn with my movie... I budgeted what I thought would be plenty of calories and ate accordingly. Then I looked up the true numbers. Almost 1000 calories. Over 70 grams of fat. Over 100% of the daily recommended total fat, and over 200% of the daily saturated fat. WHAT!? No matter how much I originally wanted it, I could not justify eating that much as a "snack". Not to mention that in a few days is another BL weigh in..... could you IMAGINE the tale I would have to tell when I gained weight? "well you see.... I ate my weight in pure fatty oil and salt" Lovely. I'm sure that would go over well. So I didn't eat it. I did however get junior mints. 16 whopping mints for 170 calories. I estimated I could eat 1 every 10 minutes of the movie. How sad. I ate 6. What a life I am now leading.
I also decided at some point today that I was done. I was done counting calories. I was done measuring and counting and wheeling and dealing and I just wanted to freaking eat. I didn't. John of course talked me down off the ledge with more words of encouragement and reminders of the fact that I AM losing weight, no matter how much I am resisting admitting it.
AND who the hell designed gyms!? Clear glass EVERYWHERE. Is is necessary that as people are driving by that they need to see me walk along the edge of the pool in my bathing suit? Is it not humiliating enough that I am IN a bathing suit? IN PUBLIC? But not only is the glass on the OUTSIDE but there is glass everywhere you look INSIDE. Today, as I was on the bike, I had a front row seat to every little perky girl, and every single muscular man just preening their way up the stairs to the weights area. Do I need to see the perky little bimbo SKIP down the stairs and then RUN them 2 at a time back up!? I GET IT. You are thin and the whoooooole world needs to know! I wish I was you and now thank you so much for making me feel totally inadequate. And as soon as I get THAT image out of my head and I am finally able to resist the urge to throw a stick in her way mid-step, I see the 300 lb man on his first day in the gym since his high school football days in 1981 wearing the same shorts that he was wearing in 1981. Still not with me? I have just 2 words for you.... DAISY. DUKES. True story. Welcome to my nightmare....
41 days down...139 to go!
Why do you do this? Why do you watch what I eat and then post to the world how BAD it was? Just mean. ;)
ReplyDeleteIn other news, :P to you. It was delicious. And worth it. LOL
Have you tried to pop your own? Just buy the kernels and pop it in a pot with a lid at your house. It is much healthier!
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