Day 76: Cry Baby

So today was yet another roller coaster day. I know the basis of why, but I will spare you the gory details. I finally made it back to the gym and discovered that last week's easy 60 minutes of cardio has again become a painful 20. I guess now I know what happens when you are a SLACKER and don't go for almost a week.... I was meeting my friend at noon, so I decided to come home do the quick ab ripper from p90x (ow by the way. I have HUGE respect for people who can do any/all of the p90x program. It's INSANE) and get going. I started doing the dvd and 30 seconds in I was already struggling. What the hell happened to getting stronger!? I feel like I am getting weaker by the day. Instead of pushing through, I quit. Not only did I quit, but I sat on my floor, in gym clothes, in front of the paused "crunchy frogs" move, and cried. Cried because I couldn't do it. Cried because I feel like I haven't been doing enough. Cried because I feel like I am starting to look better and then I stand next to someone who looks AWESOME and I can't be them, and I don't look like them, and I want to etc. etc. etc. Good. ness. Get a grip. I have ALWAYS been a crier. Always. I feel like it gives me some sort of control in a situation when I don't have control. I know it doesn't help anything. And I damn well know that sitting in front of the paused dvd doesn't count as actually doing it. But at that very moment, that's all I could do. However, when I weighed myself, I was down a 1/2lb from this morning haha (have I mentioned I'm a compulsive weigher inner?), so I guess the crying did SOMETHING. Ok, so probably not.....

Anywho.... I finally got myself together and moved on..... to Sonic where I had tots, and a burger. Oye. I was still in my calories, so I thought I would be ok.... until I had dinner..... and lets not even talk about that shall we?! Don't worry, you don't need to lecture me... my stomach already did plenty of reprimanding of its own! TMI. I know.

OH! And I got my wedding invitations done today! Thank you Melissa!!!!! They are so stinking cute and I can't wait to send them out!!!! 

and totally unrelated, I <3 Back to the Future. It's on right now and I couldn't help but watch the last 20 minutes. And "It's the Libyans" still sounds like "It's the Olympians" to me. Don't judge me.

76 days down...104 to go!