Yup. That's what I've been eating like. It's my last few hours on earth, and soon I will be heading to the chair. Good. ness. As I said yesterday, I don't really know what my issue is. Maybe its the fact that I THINK I am skinnier now than I was when I bought my dress? Maybe because I'm so happy I'm wearing 12s? I dunno.... whatever it is, I'm out of control. Tomorrow is the day I try on my dress for the first time since Sept. September when I was "politely" told that perhaps I should go back to having yogurt for lunch. And perhaps I needed to start working out again. It still wasn't until January (after gaining MORE weight that I finally decided that it was time to do something about it..... and now after months of hard work, after losing 22.5lbs (according to naked scale of course), after getting in to pants I haven't worn in YEARS, I can't stop eating real food. I'm TERRIFIED about putting on my dress tomorrow...... I KNOW it will fit me better than Sept... and I THINK I weigh less now than last June when I bought it.... but I'm still worried. Perhaps I need it to be tight so i will go back to counting calories and working out. But damn that's going to really suck if I still look like 20lbs of shit in a 10lb bag..... I'm shooting for only 13.5.....
89 days down...91 to go!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaand holy crap.... I just realized that I'm trying on my dress tomorrow which will be 90 days down, 90 days to go! The 1/2 way point! AND it will be the 9th!!!!!!!! Which means exactly 3 months to go!!!!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand now I'm even more stressed out!
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